back to blogging baby!!
Alevels ended last friday.
Fuck off Uniform; Fuck off Books!

its time to partaee!!
Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday..
PARTY EVERYDAY!! PARTY EVERYDAY!!

i'm still sane, thank you very much.
(:

Grad Tea.
2 words: Awesome Possum!!
and i became a CamSlut.
just for a day. heh.

and i'm extra happy cause of *ahem ahem*
Bff, nod your head if you know waht i'm talking abt.
hehe

(:

in a few hours time, it will be my last day of school, the end of my MI life.
well, practically still have to go back for wahtnots.
and the freaking school is pathetically near my place, so i will not really miss it.
but like Bff puts it, its the people, the environment and the frivolous stuffs that comes with it.
a big SIGH.

moving on,
Graduation Tea on Thursay, eggcited much!
i'm like 75% done with wahtever i need to do with my outfit.
see you suckas on Thurs!
may the Hottest win ;D

oh, and i'm almost done with my Cold War revision.
(:

2am, Time For a Change
HAHA

went to NUS today to mug.
70% Productive.
thats actually good.heh
(:

shared some stuffs with some of the mates; glad i made/clarify things clear. thanks bitches! (:
i asked them, " describe Zai in one word"
some answers were, 'Annoying, Cheeky, Flirt and Funny '
k la can uhh. i accept it.
shall ask more tmr.
speaking of which, not gonna mug tmr but i'm gonna go..
SHOPPING.
yes,cause Grad Tea is next week.
n i have alot of stuffs/accesories to get.

possible Grad Outfits:

 





hmm, what do you guys think?

and,
Describe Zai in one word please?
Honest answers are sincerely appreciated.
(:

this is what i call, sick.
(Y)

i am so fucking gonna go.
Cheryl! Siewyuan! Bernadette!
xD

3 days of school left til the end of my MI life.
approx 24days left til Alevels.
holy crap.
holy shit.

here i am again when i'm supposed to be sleeping-.-
Coffee-ed too much i guess.

anyhow, i was cleaning my ginormous pile of notes encompassing e past 3 yrs; n i came across numerous things..like previous class photos, doodle-ed notes by random people(:, n loads more. seriously i got distracted because all of a sudden i felt nostalgic n i'm starting to miss EVERYTHING & EVERYBODY the moment this year ends. yes. even the fucked up & retarted school. sigh. :/
22Oct's would be Grad Tea. looking forward to that definitely(:

last saturday, Hari Raya House Visiting with Ex-Dunearnites. what else can i say. nothing but fun. esp with tons of Cigarettes n Vehicles. hoho
at the end of tt day, when the last shake of hands with everybody, i swear it was kinda teary-eyed moment for everybody cause we are all grown-up and soon, some of us will be in NS. woah. time flies.
& i've finally come to terms on my position and weakness as claimed by the rest, and i must say, i'm a much a better friend than before. i crave for your pardon guys if i was really sucha pain in the ass :/

& apparently, e past 2 days i worked my LIT with supposedly the most hated Female in my class.i glanced at e past; she taught me the importance of treasuring & value-ing friendship highly; albeit i learnt it through the hard way :|

this week wasn't too bad; minus the fact that i got below-Average grades for my H2 Subjects in Prelims2 >:|
less than 1 month til examinations.
Good Luck to me.
and good luck to those taking Olevels in approx 20+days, yes Michelle, to you as well(:

oh ya, i am someone that will always try to make others happy; no matter what.
and seeing close friends like Bff happy, it enlightens me wholly.
then it strucked me.

am i really happy myself?
am i sacrificing my happiness for the sake of others?
i even question my purpose and plans for the future.
:/

Picnic in sch tmr.
but tonight will be a long one.
William Shakespeare, let me be your Sleeping Companion for now.

zzz

came back home pretty late last night, around 1 plus.
Hari Raya House Visiting was never this fun!
esp with my fellow ex- Dunearnites.
this year, we were very smooth and fast cause we had Cars (Y)
awesome or waht, next year, MY turn to drive(:
anw, i have alot to say bout ytd but i shall keep this post short.
nonetheless, i enjoyed myself thoroughly^^
Best Raya indeed(:

watched the game last night, fcking frustrating though. but luckily it didn't turn out so bad.
PHEW x infinity :|

now i pretty worried for my As. shall ATTEMPT to set my priorities straight.
today, Regular Blood Donation@BloodBankHSA
            Street Soccer@ Fajar
            Jumaliyah's Sister's Engagement Ceremony

HOW.tell me HOW :S

maybe shall cab and meet Bff to mug.idk.
i'm worried.
damn, i'm nvr this fcking worried
for my Academics at least
tsk

laterz-

today is one of the best days. constant laughter and heart-racing :D





firstly, i didnt study for my Southeast Asia paper today in the morning.
then halfway,approximately around 10am, somebody's phone rang.
everyone looked up, including me, n i was like "WTF?!'
few seconds later, i realised that the song sounds familliar,
".. could have been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend.. "
it was Anberlin! and it was MY phone. i swear my heart was racing bcoz i would like to believe that everyone wanted to rip my guts out but I SWEAR i didnt rmbr it was my phone. it was my alarm btw, cause ytd there was no school, so i decided to sleep in and set the alarm at 10.
the moment the alarm went off the second time, i know i was in deep shit. somebody shoot me, pls-.-
Ms Nora was pissed, i believe she opened my bag and switch the fucking alarm off.
now here's the best part.
the moment she did that, i just realised i had Cigs in my bag! there and then, i was like telling myself, fuck off-.-
nth happened to me though(:

so right now, i would like to sincerely apologize to EVERYBODY for the nuisance and inconvenience i caused unknowingly.
especially to dearest Albert, Renuka, Bernadette and some others.
but look on the bright side, i provided entertainment in the middle of a shitty paper! coolio! hahahaha-.-
even Aishah, Liwen, and Afiqah were grooving to Anberlin. wow(:

( ION Orchard Rendevous(: )

( Inglorious Basterds! )( Pretty^^ )</div></div>

i am the President, founder and pioneer of Zai-nism! ;D






and fuck, Gelare closed down alr?!
heard its like everywhere.
wth.
this.is.insane.
-.-

First and foremost, Selamat Hari Raya to all, Muslim and Non-Muslim, forgive me for all my sins and wrongdoings, "throw away the bad stuff, take only the good ones" [i swear that is a bad translation from Malay to English HAHA]

as of last thursday, i have six days til my next prelim2 paper, including tmr.
but how can, the school has been very smart by throwing the exams right smack into the festive period, so as of right now, i only have tdy and tmr to mug my firm ass off. pfft. Non-Muslims are so lucky because they don't have to celebrate, hence, they have like 6days to mug, whereas the poor chap here, has only 2!  _|_  _|_
Thursday, Friday and Saturday were spent cleaning house, Sunday, Celebration.
bloody hell there's barely enough time! screw you school.

okay maybe its my fault also, cause i went over to GrandMa's place in M'sia to celebrate.

Fireworks/Firecrackers: awesome man! i swear very few of you out there played those illegal stuff before. haha. too bad, you people can only play
                                           sparklers. (N)
Food: Festive season = Food Marathon! actl throughout fasting mth also i whack, heh so not much diff uh now. okay maybe my weight.
                                           i WILL TOTALLY LOOK LIKE Mr Ram and Mr Ser put together if i don't stop eating pronto. -.-

nothing beats celebrating Hari Raya kampong-style. haha. S'pore is fucked up. no, seriously. heh.
oh ya, pictures over at Facebook(:

people celebrate Hari Raya, my bestie celebrate her Birthday-.-


Happy Birthday Cheryl Ma! :D
tmr Gelare okay? my treat. (Y)

2. Zai



the latter rocks. >.<

ahem..

Exams are loved!!!
really.no kidding.
ALevels, ready, set, go?
hell yeah bring it on!
those who know me, i'm not "kidding".
yup.
exams are simply:

this shall be an all Korean/Kpop post, with regards and respect to Zai's appealing factor ( yes, appealing to one and only ME )
so if any of you would like to skip this, please do so and pretend to be nonchalant about whatever i'm gonna say. kamsa hamnida ( Thank You in Korean )
(:

as you all have already known or just heard, that Korean Pop Culture or Korean Fever has been spreading like wildfire, thanks and no thanks to Globalization and nonetheless, You Tube. (Y)
personally, i couldn't care less when it all first started and was pretty ignorant about it. However, when my social circle starts to go gaga over it, peer influence sets in and hence, i got curious.

Some girl/boy band names i have come across/researched:


( WonderGirls )</div>( WonderGirls )</div>
( DBSK/TVXQ )</div>( DBSK/TVXQ )</div>

( SS501 )( SS501 )</div></div>( 2PM )( 2PM )</div>


( SuperJunior )</div>( SUPERJUNIOR )</div>

( SHINee )</div>( SHINee )</div>

( BIGBANG & 2NE1 )</div>( BIGBANG & 2NE1 ).</div>

( SNSD!! )</div>( SNSD! )</div>( SNSD! )

now if you must be wondering why i posted this is because in the future and when i'm over the Korean craze( if managed to live up to a ripe age haha ) i would love to look back and laugh at my silly antics. haha. after all, this is how i roll, Music keeps me going. (Y)
SNSD Fighting! SNSD Forever!

today is a total waste.
only for today, i assure myself, that i won't touch my books.
because..
i found a new love!!

Tiffany 티파니!!

<3
Hee Hee

pulled off a major surprise earlier today by completing my readings on Religious Fundametalism.
anyhow, school today at 8.30 til' 4. more and more revision.
feels like a normal school day, ain't that much of a holiday ryt? utter nonsense. pfft.

btw, F said i blogged like a Girl-_-
but she did mentioned about Adrian Mole.
maybe i am.
maybe i do play the role of a Protagonist in the novel, except that i'm non-fiction unlike Adrian.
i think Sue Townsend would be the one most happy when she sees how i'm doing.
haha.
Bernice showed me a video today, and one of the quotes she passed off was:
" Life is a drawing without an eraser "
(Y)

can't bicker much about that statement eh? cause it is so damn bloody true. (:

now here's a funny video for all of you.
meet my friend, Vicky..


HAHAHAHA

woke up at 1 today to the sound of hysterical laughter coming from the teevee screen.
Shrek the Third, was playing on HBO Family. the last time i caught that movie was during its sneak preview.
anw, i swear i get my influences/inspirations/motivations from all kind of weird and confounding sources.

i know it is some cartoon shit but i know i can take away something from any movie even if the majority population thinks the movie sucks. i took some part of Justin Timberlake's words and came up with this:

“Some might always view us as villains, a person they dislike, or some Loser-shit they happen to meet.
But do we always have to live this way? Being yourself is all that matters cause’ at the end of the day, the ones at Loser-ville are the ones most happy.”

btw, Justin played a Loser-Boy in the Movie.
i'm not that malleable, but i conclude that those words above is a benevolent and benign approach to how we should manage our lives.
now, Thank You for letting me being myself.
(Y)

argh fuck la so blur. but nvm. she doesn't care.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BP !!!!!
i <3 You
((:

blardy hell.
i woke at 6am today, thinking that i still can eat-.-
anyhoo, i've been up, blog-hoping here and there, cause i got NOTHING to do besides going back to sleep,
which obviously i didn't.

reading up on the lives of friends/other people is just my weird pastime, cause i really don't give a shittt but heck, i'm always bored.
it struck me well and hard, about how my life has turn out to be, and how lucky/fortunate other's lives are.
envy/jealousy are some words in my limited vocabulary but ones i never fail to comprehend.

and there i was, self-reflecting in front of this Red Dell Laptop Screen, wondering, pondering and so on..

a glance at the social circle(s) i have at this point of my life, i do not know whether to be least happy/sad or unsatisfied. idk, you tell me.
ever since i started Compulsory education back in, hmm, let me see, 1996? wtv seriously.
i have this very friendly nature of me whenever i meet (new) people. so ya, i admit. i'm more of a Socialite than a Social Butterfly.
i DO NOT see my friendliness nature as being Flirty or Fraternising ( as said by Something's Bf ), but rather, i'm just being nice and polite.
then again, in this world, i will have my share of detractors whose opinions/comments/remarks will affect me but at the end of the day. i'll forget about it or sth like that.
still, i DO KNOW where to draw the line and keep my distance.
guess some are still unhappy but so be it.

given the socialite that i am, i am constantly making new friends, i enjoy meeting new people. don't you people get it? i don't wanna stuck in one social circle, i want to expand my contacts, i want to be Globalized! utter Schnooks. * shakes head*
but of course there will be pros and cons, like losing the bond i have with some ( shall not mention names) or totally losing my friendship with tom/dick/harry.
one of them used to be my close friend.
but i guess She demanded more than just friendship -loyalty for that matter- in which i failed to exercise. on my side, i think she fails to understand how my social behaviour works and how i define my social identity. given the current circumstances, there's absolutely no way i could change things but i do have to thank her cause i learnt some "new" things because of her. like how a two-faced behaves in a social circle. and i thought Gemini's are two-faced. hmm, hallelujah to me? screw yourself.

a good friend of mine, Abu, said on his facebook, something like " the people you hate might be your best friend after all " plusminusmultiplydivide here and there luhh. so the point is that, cause ur supposedly "hated" friend knows you inside out that both parties eventually hate each other. vice-versa. bravo. nice one Abu. (Y)
i'm sure alot of them feel the same towards me similarly. well, maybe because i'm subconciously ignorant or oblivious at my own actions/remarks/comments that subsequently led to them disliking me. so here's a big note to everybody:

I Crave For All of Your Pardon, especially to those whom i have insulted/gave cynical remarks/annoyed/ irritated and whatnot.
and i know i'm doing this cause i know i'm gonna die one day and in conjuction with Holy Ramadhan, i shall be nice and apologize to everybody whom i've befriended and met throughout my 19 years of living on Mother Earth. they say its never too late to change things.
i hope this is a good start. (=

enough of the melodrama, here's more. HAHA.
my life is pretty messed up i think.
i have 2 unsupportive parents, 1 innocent, young brat as a younger sister and 1 annoying, bloodsucker as a Elder Brother.
( they will never read this, but i love them to bits, despite how every single one of them fail to understand me and succeeding in annoying or pissing me off at every single attempt. pfft )
i'm targetting As for my results but given the condition i am in right now, i'm better be off working as a Road-Sweeper infront of my house.

i have approx 63 days left to Alevels and here i am bickering about my life and everything that comes along with it.
i feel that having a lack of motivational sense in my surrounding really affects me, given that i'm like the only one in the family struggling with my studies. I WANT TO BE A SOCCER PLAYER LAHHHHH!!! x infinity. i don't need books to play. i just need my adidas boots and my fave *lucky charm* with me (:

now my back aches cause i fell asleep on the bedroom floor. why, you ask so? cause i placed all my books and stuffs on bed cause i initially wanted to clean my half-side of the room ( it sucks to share a room with my brother ok. tsk )
but of course i always procrastinate. in life. academically as well. everything. heh.
then again i dont want to disappoint Ms Choo aka Yakuza. don't fret, i will do my best! (:

perhaps maybe that is why i'm still single now, maybe the problem lies in me? idk, i want a GINORMOUS mirror for my 20th Birthday ok. then i can look at my horrible self as i am as vain as hell.
some of you out there are lucky to have Gfs/Bfs, unlike me. but i'm not saying this indicating that i want one. maybe not in the near future k.
i don't need one when i have my Awesome Bff!! <3
Bff, are you reading this? heh. you still owe me a Ice-Cream, Popcorn, Movie, Shopping Date all-roll-into one kayy.
sigh, but then she has a Lover now, i bet she forgot about me already. tsk. :(

btw,
have i mentioned that i'm still sick? yea i am.
coughing still. partly because i skipped my cough syrup twice and only took my other pills as medication.
i am stubborn. why? not happy? call police ahh! * with Old Ahpek intonation and articulation *
so, because of that, i cannot fast today! yay! -.- you think i'm happy isit? must pay back ok. pftt.




wow wow, this very a long post, and i seem to be monologing, but who cares, i never ask you people to read what. -.-

ok ok i shall stop here and be a good boy and clean my bedroom and do my chores.
oh, there is still the testimonial to do. lazy la bodoh. tsk.


thank you Anberlin for accompanying me throughout my morning.
*headbang on repeat mode*
\m/